Holiday's fashion

Hi..

Today is so miserable day, just because it's the holiday's, I am feeling dizzy and sick, and outside there's snow and cold.

I must confess something. I hate Valentine's day. This year specially. Because of many things: Firstly, I have in my "groupie", are eight people. From those eight girls, three truly hate me. Or no, I don't believe that. We have just some different points of life. And both sides always understand that. Which is in the end pretty sad. We don't have anything else in common, just school and same group. After the school, I don't believe I will ever hear anything from them. Maybe just to their wedding, I guess. Anyway, I gave all the others really great presents but two of them didn't get anything. What I am afraid, they will someday find out. Not that they would hear about the presents from someone. But I think, this is something I would rather drag to the grave.

Valentine's day should be a happy day. Still, for me, it is one of the most challenging days in the whole year. Maybe you have seen already the film, "Valentine's Day". And there is the party, where they say: I hate Valentine's day. Or something like that.

If someone will be ever reading this, who actually knows whom I am talking about, this might be important to know. He went there. He freakin' went to the dance. Just because I'm stuck in some different country and we are fighting, doesn't mean we broke up. Or does it? I am confused. I must understand, he doesn't respect me enough to skip a night of Valentine's day dance. Or he is really in love with that other girls. Because if that wasn't so, he hadn't ever come in there. But he did.

Oh, forget that horrific day, Ellen. It is long gone.

I must say, I have this weird season going on. I feel sad all the time, I don't have any creativity left.

Fashion.. Something that should help me. I cut always from random magazines articles. This is one of them, which I thought was pretty cool.

Few rules of Fashionista:

1. believe in yourself. Even if others say the combination looks awful, wear it. You might hate yourself for that later but on that moment it's like freedom to you.

2. Forget every rule and do whatever you want with your clothes. If you consider burning them, please don't- there are many poor people who would actually need those clothes.

3. There is not a single man in this world who would actually care what you are wearing- not if he is not in the boyfriend/one night stand and then lover- area.

I guess this is it..

Ellen